Courage Gained

Most of my life has been all about hiding in the background, not speaking up, holding it all inside, waiting for that day when all will be made right. I had such a poor sense of myself and a poor sense of God, that it didn’t matter to me what people said or did, as long as I held to what I knew to be morally right. I angrily sat, hoping that eventually they would figure it all out and would change, making life better for me. I was afraid to speak up for what was right. Although, I didn’t like living this way, I felt powerless to do anything about it.

Since I have been learning more about God through Christian Science, that sense of powerlessness has been replaced with courage and conviction, through a better understanding of my purpose in life, as the idea and reflection of God. I am learning the reason why I must stand with Principle, against all forms of error that suggest that I do not have the power to change the appearance of the world I live in or the courage to demand that it be brought into line with the world that God/ Good created. I have learned that the change comes from within, that I must change my misconceptions of the world, and that I must change how I see myself in this world. This process certainly has not been without its struggles, but through the work that my Practitioner has done to guide me forward, I have found my strength in God. God has, opened my eyes to a thousand chariots of fire, and an army of Angels standing beside me, for what truly matters to Him. It has enabled me to give voice to the Truths I have learned, with conviction, which has brought about the necessary changes, in my relationship, my home and my finances.

Christian Science has given me a sense of Love where there was once hate and resentment, a desire to live according to God, where there was once a longing for death, and an understanding of Truth where there was once a sense of separation from God. It is the greatest gift of humanity, that I have ever known. I am deeply grateful to God for it, for Mrs. Eddy and my Practitioner and for His ever strengthening, Grace and Mercy.