Finding Her Way With God

I want to share my experience in working with a practitioner in this church. When I called my practitioner for the first time, I had an interesting feeling. I felt naked. I felt naked in the sense that I felt I could not hide anything from her; it seemed all my flaws were in the open, as if a spotlight was on them. It reminded me of the scene in Genesis 3, where God walked in the Garden of Eden, calling to Adam, “Where art thou?” And Adam said, “I was afraid, because I was naked and hid myself.” I realized there is no hiding from God. I feel that the practitioner is God’s agent or advocate on earth. It is a humbling feeling. Sometimes, I find it is not easy to call a practitioner, because I know my flaws will be detected. But every time I call my practitioner, I experience support and uplift, even if it is through a rebuke.

The other thing I find remarkable about working with a practitioner is that my practitioner never tells me what to do. She never gives advice, although I would like that. She gives me statements of Truth, material to study, sometimes a heartfelt laugh, that snaps me right out of my complaint or sorrow. Often, I receive deep compassion, but never advice. I am honest, sometimes I would like that advice. I think: “Just tell me what to do in this situation. What is the Christian Science way to solve this problem?” But what I hear is: “God will lead you in the right way. With this, it is on me to connect to Truth and divine wisdom, to find my way in and with God Almighty, rather than being given a solution or a pill, so to speak. I am deeply grateful for this way of support and guidance, which is enabling me to find my way in Christian Science.