Victim Mentality Replaced with Confidence and Peace.

Looking back on my life, I have to say that I am very grateful to God for my career in the New York State Dept. of Corrections. As a Corrections Officer, I learned a lot about myself and how strong and capable I could be. I learned communication skills, whereas before, I was always shy and felt unheard and powerless. But every day I went to work, I still struggled mentally with fear of being re-victimized. I never thought in a million years that Corrections would be my job, but here I was working in a prison. The most threatening situation I could possibly be in, in my mind. I questioned why I was there but I stuck it out for 26 years.

There was a time in my struggles when I was so guarded against any external threat that I saw threats everywhere I looked. I went to the Dr. once and when he touched my arm it felt like a violation of my body. I panicked and got angry and left the appointment. It was a constant struggle to keep myself safe.

My Practitioner pointed out that I would keep feeling threatened as long as I was looking for it. I had to stop seeing myself as a victim. I had to stop seeing others as a threat to my safety. I was constantly on high alert. I had to learn to discern the difference between what I was imagining could happen and what was actually happening in reality. It took some time but with the help of my Practitioner I broke out of that victim mentality. It has changed how I see the world today and has enabled me to go forward with confidence and peace.

I am so grateful for Christian Science and all that I have learned. I am deeply grateful to my Practitioner for all the work she has done to lead me closer to God and bring about so many healings.