Learning to do God’s Will

I have been working on an issue for some time and have had support from my practitioner throughout. This time yesterday I realized that I was holding to the thought that it seemed too much of a miracle for this particular healing to come through so, I had to work to correct my thoughts. I realized that thinking there was another mind or other minds instead of the one infinite Mind, God was wrong thinking. I could intellectualize about the issue but I was not willing to let God take over. I would say to myself not my will but Thine be done and would smother it in doubt. This is not the right way of working with Christian Science if I doubt God’s unfailing help. I realize I should trust all to God and the prayerful work; to be sure of His care and perfect government. It was rather humbling to realize this so I have had to go back and review my thoughts and to let the light of forgiveness bless me and others. I do not need to be responsible for an outcome but have to be sincere when I say Thy will be done. Jesus clearly and succinctly said in the Gospel of John, “I can of my own self do nothing.” Mary Baker Eddy reminded us to let the light of God shine and in shining in me it can bring about unexpected possibilities. I’m working on other issues and there has been a shift in my approach and attitude. I am learning to let God speak to me and listen without adding my ideas and with regular practitioner help I am taking a day at a time. Our Roundtables on Sundays and the 24 hour library which is on the Plainfield Christian Science Church, Independent’s website helps me to be able to wake up and ask God what I should do and be open to that still small voice which guides me. I very grateful to have found Christian Science at Plainfield and to have the various materials to study. The support of the German speaking readers and lesson translators is very uplifting.